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Help! It looks like I will be home for the next month and I am so in need of a purpose (other than vessel for a new life) Let me tell you what I have done so far: knit a sweater, sewn a blanket and 10 burp rags, organized baby clothes, organized four years of photos, organized our papers for the past two years, picked out furniture and rugs for our new addition, shopped for things I don’t need, watched an entire season of Grey’s Anatomy and Ugly Betty online, started a blog, talked on the phone to every friend I can think of to harass, read piles of books and magazines, completed fifty three hours of continuing medical education, slept until I am just no longer tired, spent endless uncountable hours online doing I’m not sure what, and of course some daydreaming about things like… going for a walk… outside. So if you love me, please think of something for me to expend energy on. My husband will thank you.
Guess it was a good thing I went for a walk yesterday… my doctor called this morning and said while the placenta had moved, my cervix had really thinned out, so I still need to stay home and I’ll have some more tests this week to see what is happening. Big bummer. Anyway, it was a LOOOONG day at our house. I had planned on taking Zach for some outings since we haven’t been able to do anything together for so long, but instead we had to stay home all day, which for anyone with a two year old can attest virtually guarentees beast mode by the afternoon. And did I mention that he didn’t take a nap today? It didn’t help that today was Joe’s day off and he had expected a quiet house all day…. oh well. I think everyone will go to bed a little grumpy tonight.
I had my ultrasound today… and the placenta has migrated so it looks like I can be free of bedrest! The baby was sleeping during the study so the tech took this great photo for me.
On my way home from the hospital, I didn’t know quite what to do with myself. I’ve gotten so used to very simple days. But then I noticed how warm the sun felt and how beautiful it was outside and I realized I could go for a walk! It seemed like such a simple guilty pleasure to be outside but it was so wonderful.
I haven’t written for a while because while I secretly enjoyed my first few weeks of lying on the couch, I am officially done, Done, DONE with this bedrest thing. I’ve been a little depressed the last few days because I can think of PLENTY of things to do, but nothing that involves also sitting on the couch! Today I decided to drag my sewing machine out and make some spit-rags for the new baby. I haven’t really let myself get too excited about the baby or make things for him… I think the protect myself if something happens to the pregnancy. Anyway, sewing turned out to be the cure for the bedrest blues, even though technically I didn’t spend much time on the couch, at least I was sitting, right?
This morning it was beautiful at the lake- the sun was shining and even though the thermometer only said 40, it felt warm and it felt like spring. Zach insisted on taking his Gorilla Munch out on the porch to eat – we haven’t eaten on the porch since last summer, but it seemed like he remembers those sunny, warm days. 
I must have daydreamed for a few minutes because the next time I looked at his cereal, it looked a little funny. I looked a little closer and realized that Z had added some cat chow to his bowl and was happily enjoying his creation! He wasn’t so happy when Mommy took it away though…
I have accomplished absolutely nothing during my two weeks on bedrest. A friend stopped by to visit today and mentioned that if he ever had to be in a similar situation, that he would write a novel or do something grand with his time, and then asked, so “how are you passing the time” The truth? Lots of naps, videos, trashy novels, daydreaming, naps, TV, snacking, internet surfing, random attempts to try to learn the ukulele, and naps. And honestly, that is all I have done the last two weeks. Usually I am very big on accomplishments, to-do lists, and forward progress. Even on vacations, I have a hard time relaxing, I need to DO something. I think this is the first time in my life I have just done nothing for so long. And no, I have not found enlightenment in my nothingness, but I think when this is all over, I will be able to better appreciate any “nothing” time I get and use it more often for nothing.
- My husband DOES know how to use the vacuum cleaner!
- I haven’t changed a diaper in a week (maybe this should count for two items since our baby has diarrhea…)
- I can take a nap everyday. Might as well! Once the baby is here I won’t get this much sleep again for years.
- My husband likes to snuggle with me on the couch- we won’t have time like this again for a while.
- Seeing Zach watch Disney movies for the first time (he’s never had TV before this). I loved those movies when I was a kid.
- Did I mention the naps yet?
- I haven’t had to cook or clean in a week!
- I have time to learn to play the ukulele- although it turns out, I really stink…. at least it is something to do
- The baby moves so much when I am quiet- I feel much more bonded to him now.
- Being reminded what wonderful friends and family I have, so many people are doing things to help us get through these tough few weeks. Thank you all.
